My Rating: 🌟🌟🌟.5
Maggie Young had the market on normal. Normal friends, normal parents, normal grades.. normal life. Until him.
Clayton Reed was running from his past and an army of personal demons that threatened to take him down. He never thought he had a chance at happiness. Until her.
Maggie thought their love could overcome anything. Clay thought she was all he needed to fix his messy life. That together, they could face the world. But the darkness is always waiting.
Sometimes the greatest obstacle to true love is within yourself.
Take it from me, you need to go grab a big box of tissues from your nearby department store right now because you are gonna run out of them, cuz this book will make you cry your eyes out and leave you down in the dumps for at least a fortnight.
Find You in the Dark is a story of Maggie, who has a perfect life. She has perfect friends, perfect parents, perfect grades and perfect whatnot. And then, enters Clayton.
This book is a story of a girl who has it all, and who finds herself having a massive crush on a guy with severe mental health issues. He suffers from bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder. And together, they try to work through the problems that life throws at them.
I actually read this book because of this beautiful cover. I was taken unawares because I had not gone into it knowing it had a character who suffers from mental illness.
This book is interesting– I was hooked right as I read the prologue, in which our main character is trying to wipe some blood off a messy bathroom floor. This scene piqued my interest and I tore through this book.
I am rating and reviewing it primarily as a love story – the relationship was toxic as hell and I guess everyone was aware of its toxicity? But I do not want to talk about it in detail because I do not remember anything about the book, as I read it ages ago.
Talking about mental illness in books is really necessary — in a healthy way, of course– and I like it when there is no glamorization of mental illness, there are accurate descriptions of it and there is a depiction of treatment, therapy, and hope. Since I read this book a long time ago, I do not remember how the author actually treated Clay’s mental illness in the first book in this series. However, it did not show therapy, as Clay does not like medication and therapy.
Seldom does it happen that you fall in love with the main characters, so much so that their feelings become your feelings, their problems become your problems. You feel angry when they are angry, and you cry when they cry. And Maggie (and Clay’s) predicaments made me cry so much. They made me feel sad, helpless and livid.
The book ends with a cliffhanger, which is something I do not really enjoy. I remember picking up the second book asap. I remember hoping that all the things would get resolved. I’m bad at reading sequels, and I read this one…so, that’s saying something! I also remember staying up all night to finish it! I really, really enjoyed it.
If you are considering reading this book, just keep in mind that this book has depictions of a toxic relationship, emotionally distant and abusive parenting, cutting, past suicide attempt, alcoholism, addiction, bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder and probably homophobia (I do not remember this but I guess it was there?). It also has pretty graphic sex scenes, so if you do not want to read that, stay away. No book is more important than you!
If you’re looking for an addictive teen romance with the high-school setting, just pick it up. You would probably like it. I did have problems with it, but it wasn’t bad.
I read this book, and I enjoyed every page of it. I had several problems with the romance, but I know how it gets treated in the second part of the book, so I would not complain much.
Have you read this book? What did you think about it? Let’s talk about it in the comments!
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