Hey y’all, I hope you’re having a wonderful day. I haven’t updated my blog in some time and I have SO many half-written posts in my drafts but I just can’t bring myself to finish them… So, I thought I should just do a little update thingy in the meantime.
Lately, I have been having a very meh time. I mean, things have been stressful because of a) an exam, b) applying to multiple places for an internship, and c) not finding any joy in reading.
Anyways, I ended up passing my exam and getting into the college I wanted to to study further even though I had thought I wouldn’t because I hadn’t picked up a book in so many months! I should be grateful tbh as the thought of it was taking a toll on me. Now it’s over and I can live in peace… at least for a few months and then I’ll have my finals and my master’s entrance exams ugh! I’m also in touch with a business for my internship and hopefully, it will go as planned. Things are actually looking up, finally. Anxiety just makes me want to delete this sentence and stop being hopeful. Hate you, anxiety. However, I haven’t read ANYTHING in a long time. I don’t even know how long I’ve gone without reading – maybe just 10-11 days -but I’ll share with you my recent reads below.
So, whenever I feel like reading, I just can’t get it done?? It’s like, there’s a block? I often wonder if that is it… if this is the last time I’m gonna pick up a book, but then it doesn’t end up being the last time and I eventually do pick up a book and enjoy it. But, the last few days have been so weird. I mean, I just can’t read anything. I mean, I tried reading After We Collided and that book was SO horrible??? I had to put it down and cry over my wasted money and time even though I knew it would happen and I still wasted my time and money. I was so bored with it because I can literally summarize this book for you in a few sentences:
Hard on Hardin is an abusive jerk. Tessa cries. She realizes she loves Hardin’s hot body and goes back to Hardin who also promises to be less of an abusive jerk. The next day, Hardin is an abusive jerk and Tessa cries and the whole cycle repeats itself. This book is even more toxic than mercury. I’m sorry for my pathetic attempts at making jokes.
However, if you’re thinking I just wasted my month, you haven’t been more wrong! I did read a few books and I’m gonna post their covers here because honestly, some of them did have great covers, and I couldn’t be bothered to review them because my fingers are so lazy (the only thing they wanna do is pick up food).
First of all, all of these books have a male POV? I mean, save for the trashy love story that I read – By Your Side by Kasie West – and it doesn’t happen?? How did that happen? We need to know! So, here’s a summary of what I thought about these books:
- Teen Titans: Beast Boy by Kami Garcia and Gabriel Picolo – 5/5 stars ✨ Legit the most elegant thing my eyes have seen! It’s even better than the cartoon series I used to watch as a kid. Uh, nostalgia.
- When Breath Becomes Air by Paul Kalanithi – 5/5 stars ✨ I have no idea what to say? I’m still processing my feelings? But it feels right to give it five stars.
- Twisted by Laurie Halse Anderson – 5/5 stars ✨ how is this happening? I mean, I loved it so much! Idk what to say but I love LHA so much after this because actually, this was the second time I read this book! I’m gonna go check out Wintergirls and Catalyst after this.
- Bottled Up by Jaye Murray – 4/5 stars ✨ Another book that I thought I wouldn’t like but ended up loving, actually?
- Suicide Notes by Michael Thomas Ford – 5/5 stars ✨ This was also a reread. Guess that’d what I’m doing now… reread old books.
I also started reading Midnight Sun by Stephenie Meyer and I had so many expectations from the book. One of them was not getting bored while reading it, but I did get bored and I had to stop reading it. Also, this book is super big. I know that all of the Twilight books are giant tomes and I have read all of them, including that unfinished Midnight Sun version that Meyer put on her website, and not just once but SO MANY TIMES. Maybe the reason why I couldn’t finish it without getting bored is, I watched Twilight movies very recently and I also read the first book last winter, so maybe I’m just bored with the story… Not to mention that I also tried reading New Moon but I just couldn’t as it was also very boring, but then I watched the movie – the visual effects were so lit! I suck at visual effects thing but I’m sure I can do better than what was done in the movie. The way shit was flying around the room was worth witnessing. Whoa, we love a cool movie with some
tragic cool visual effects.
If you are wondering what I do the whole day now as I don’t study and don’t watch TV and don’t post as often and haven’t started my internship and I haven’t picked up a book in such a long time, the answer is here: I found a new YouTube channel. Uh, no, not what you’re thinking. Calm down. I actually discovered a new YouTube channel to watch. It’s called ClickForTaz and what I do the whole day is:
I watch her food videos. Taz is so relatable and she gives off these teen vibes. If you’re a depressed and lonely young adult who doesn’t know what to do with life and isn’t sure what the point of our existence is when we eventually have to rot in our graves or float in the environment in some other form of matter, let me tell you, Click For Taz is a good channel to watch. The only reason is, it’s a good distraction, and also she’s so hilarious. Maybe I relate more to her because she writes some cool poetry and loves food and is a south Asian just like me??
I’m not sure if I’ve told all of you about this but there’s another YouTube channel that I watch quite frequently just because I love the music that guy puts in his videos and I love the aesthetic? Anyways, his videos are about life and adventure with his friends and they’re just so cool and fun to watch? The channel is Valspire Family and I have just started watching it recently and I’m liking it so far.
Also, in the last few days I’ve decided that kind people only exist online. I feel really glad to have found my community here on WordPress. But really, you guys are amazing and very supportive. Thank you so much for being here. ❤